'Didn't feel like living anymore': Deepika Padukone opens up to Amitabh Bachchan about her depression on 'KBC 13'

Bollywood actor Deepika Padukone and filmmaker Farah Khan graced the hot seat on the Ganesh Chaturthi special episode of ‘Kaun Banega Crorepati 13’ today (September 10). The two celebs talked about various things to Amitabh Bachchan and had left the audience in splits with their fun interaction.

Deepika, who was on the show to raise funds for her organisation that supports mental health opened up on her struggle with depression. On being asked by Big B if she’s comfortable with talking about it, Deepika, who first experienced depression in 2014, said that if she could help even one person with her story then she would succeed.

Before narrating her struggle, Deepika hesitated and stuttered for a moment and then said, “Suddenly mujhe aise laga ki mere paet mein ek ajeeb sa feeling hota tha, ek khaalipan mein mehsoos karti this. Mujhe aise lagta tha ki mujhe kaam pe nahi jaana hai. Mein kisi ko milna nahi chahti thi, mein bahar nahi jaana chahti thi. Mein kuch nahi karna chahti thi. Kaafi baar, I don't know if I should say this, but jeene ki jo ... I didn't feel like living anymore. I felt like I had no purpose.”

She further shared that she repeatedly cried during that period. Recalling an incident from ‘Happy New Year’ shoot. Deepika said that she would go and cry in the van after her shoot was over. “Didn’t know myself why I was crying or feeling like that,” she said.

It was her mother, Ujjala Padukone, who one day noticed that Deepika’s cry was different than usual, it “was a cry for help,” she said. The 35-year-old later contacted a psychiatrist who figured out that she was not okay and needed help. The actress said that now she feels better and has made lifestyle changes as well.

 

 

 

 

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Meanwhile, Farah, who had come on the show to raise money for Ayansh, a 17-month old child suffering from Spinal Muscular Atrophy and required a Rs 16 crore injection to survive. Farah also made Big B and Deepika enact the famous ‘Ek chutki indoor’ scene from their movie ‘Om Shanti Om’.

Senior Bachchan even called up Ranveer Singh and had a hilarious conversation with him. Deepika and Farah shared several anecdotes from their time shooting with the senior actor. Deepika revealed that during the shoot of ‘Piku’, Big B used to steal her food and emptied her lunch ‘dabba’.

The top six finalists of ‘Indian Idol Season 12’ - Pawandeep Rajan, Arunita Kanjilal, Mohd Danish, Sayli Kamble, Nihal Tauro and Shanmukha Priya - also performed in this star-studded special episode.

Farah and Deepika managed to win Rs 25 lakhs after which the hooter went off and the episode got over.